Sunday, December 20, 2009
Today has been a fun, relieving, emotional, weird day. I've gotten a lot done around the house which I guess is good since I really don't have any motivation to do it. I got to go out by myself this afternoon, another good thing and much needed. Then tonight we had date night and I realize it's been way too long since we have had one of those. Our conversation was great and much needed. My conversation with our babysitter afterwards was also much needed for both of us. But all of this has been very emotionally draining and now I am physically and emotionally tuckered out. I always think it is weird that when you talk about the crevices of your heart that you end up emotionally exhausted afterward. Seems to me it should be the other way around. Holding it all in should exhaust you not getting it all out in the fresh air. Well alot got out in the fresh air today and I'm now officially ready for a break. It was a rough day and yet a fulfilling day, such a strange combination. Now I'm off to go rest in the Lord's arms and let Him renew my strength. How do people do this craziness of life and hurts without the renewal and peace the Holy Spirit brings? Tonight I'm grateful that both my Savior and my husband are completely acceptant of me despite fact that I feel like I'm damaged goods. Thank you Jesus that my baggage has never stopped you from loving me, nor has it ever stopped my husband from loving me. I'm awed by both of those facts.