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I am so thankful for the friends who have emailed and called to check on me after my last post. I really process my feelings through writing, and that is what I did. I wrote, between me and God to figure things out. Then for whatever unknown reason, I posted it. Maybe to allow you to see that I am far from having it all figured out, but I do trust that God is at the center of my life and will care for me even through the struggles. It is almost strange the amount of peace and healing that came just from writing about my struggles and sharing them. I have always been told that the devil likes to work in darkness. He will take my weaknesses, my fears, my doubts and make everything seem so much worse than it actually is. When I allow it all to be brought to the light, there is healing, grace, support, and peace. I do really trust that the Lord will carry us through this difficult time. He has never failed us before, I know He won't start now! My son asked me one day if we were poor. I answered no, we have so much to be thankful for. There are people who will go to bed tonight in a box not in a home, there are people who don't have enough food to eat and are starving to death, there are people who are sick but cannot see a doctor, there are people who don't have cars, homes, food, clothes, family, or God. Things may be tight but we have faced much worse. Things may be difficult but we have never gone without. The Lord is faithful to His promises and loving toward all He has made. I will continue to sing the praises of the Lord. I will continue to rely on Him through everything. I will continue to trust that His ways are good and that He has a purpose and a future for us. He is good, even when life isn't. Period, end of story. God is still good, He is still God and He is still sovereign.